Spike's Journal

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-05-16T22:32:00

2004-05-17T05:34:00Z

Hey it's David Boreanaz's birthday today. 33 years young. Old but not as old as me.

Isn't it a great birthday present to have your show cancelled and have it end three days after your birthday? I don't know how I can top that.

Have fun buddy. Live it up.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-04-30T20:13:00

2004-05-01T03:16:27Z

Before I left for London I picked up some shirts featuring my gorgeous girlfriend.

I think Ben followed me to the t-shirt store.

I'm in London right now. I have that thing tomorrow but right now I'm with Adri. I'm glad we get to be together over here. It makes life nice.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-04-14T19:45:00

2004-04-15T02:48:57Z

So finally, a new Angel tonight after a new Smallville.

And I'm promoting the WB (We're Bastards, according to Charisma) why?

Fuckers. Krypton may be next in their axing, since they're getting rid of their top rated shows.

Um, pretty much I'm slacking off now, just jamming with the band.

I'm getting bored but hopefully that won't be the case on Saturday night.

I have a date with the beautiful Jessica Simpson. Maxim's #1? How did I get to be so lucky? I can't wait.

Hope all is well in your lives. Mine is actually getting really good, aside from the fact that my show is getting the snippity snip like Spike did.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-04-11T15:32:00

2004-04-11T22:35:05Z

MY LITTLE SISTER IS ENGAGED?!

Emma and Sean, congratulations. I want you to know I support you fully, no matter if other people give you grief about it.

Sean, you're a great guy, and it was great to finally meet you the other night at the party. Take care of my little sister, and if you hurt her I'll be outside your flat... just kidding.

Good luck you two.

::Sniffs.:: Reminds me of when I was married.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-03-30T20:25:00

2004-03-31T04:28:24Z

Now this just makes me very very sad.

Gellar Won't Appear In Angel Finale

Sarah Michelle Gellar won't appear in the series finale of "Angel," the spinoff of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" in which she played the title role.

Joss Whedon, the show's executive producer, told TV Guide for its online edition that he didn't invite Gellar to appear in the final episode because he didn't want it to "revolve around a guest star."

"I want to end the show with the people who've been in the trenches together, the characters who have lived — and occasionally died — together, the regulars," Whedon said.

He said he invited Gellar to appear in the second-to-last episode, but she wasn't available because she was in Tokyo working on the horror film "The Grudge" when the show was being shot.

Whedon's partner, Jeffrey Bell, said show executives eventually learned that Gellar was available for the final episode despite being booked at the time of the penultimate one.

But by that time, the second-to-last episode had already been written and shot, and getting her into the last episode "didn't make any sense" with the plot that had been written so far.

"By the time it became a possibility, the ship had sort of sailed," Bell said.

(imdb.com)

Not to have the girl who started it all on the spin-off's finale? :'(

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-03-24T19:00:00

2004-03-25T03:04:29Z

30 years ago today, a wonderful young woman was born. Her spunky attitude, kind heart, and unbreakable spirit has been an inspiration for me constantly.

Happy birthday luv.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-03-07T14:58:00

2004-03-07T23:01:50Z

Okay okay okay.

Just hung out last night at Ben's house, because he threw a party. I talked with a few people.

Now I'm just spending my Sunday in peace and loneliness.

Here's an interesting pic of me.

Ciao.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-03-03T22:02:00

2004-03-04T06:12:50Z

Hello kidlets.

Another Wednesday, another Angel. Also, another final episode to air...

I will be posting links to petition sites to help keep Angel on the air, because the WB is giving the cast and Joss Whedon the shaft after being one of its most watched AND highest rated shows. Plus, Buffy/Angel helped launch the WB. Nice little payback to cancel us, eh?

And after I'm on for one season? Bugger that! And of course the season end is all based around the adorable Amy Acker.

I, of course, always tape my own show, so I watched that other Wednesday night drama at 9 PM, The O.C.

All my little OC friends, you kids are doing a fabulous job. Mr. Carmack, I must say you being robbed from your cradle is pretty damn funny to watch. Ms. Armstrong, your little teary eyed goodbye was touching. Mr. Brody, your delivery of dialogue is perfect, as always. Ms. Barton, gorgeous and gifted as always. Ms. Bilson, you need better dialogue, and you need to get your needy self here. Mr. McKenzie, you little ponce, you got your ass thoroughly kicked.

Also, did you see my baby in the promo for the next episode? Yes, my darling Paris is guest starring, along with Colin Hanks (Tom's son, from the great movie Orange County).

And another thing, I heard a rumor that little bit is here. Michelle, luv, where are you? I miss my little Buffy Jr. shadow!

Signing out, I shall remain...

James Wesley Marsters

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-02-27T18:52:00

2004-02-28T03:05:06Z

YAY! My Emma-friend is here! Much love to her, and I have to hold a moment of silence for Anya cuz she was Spike's forget-Buffy sex. And he was her forget-Xander sex. And then she died on the finale like me! Yay for us!

Okay what the fuck I'm 41 years old and I'm acting like a giddy child. This week has been pretty damn good so I'm allowed to be giddy.

Aside from shooting Angel, I've been able to spend a lot of time with Paris. I know I'm nowhere as famous as she is, but just being with her in public means we're mobbed by damn paparazzi people. We have to go to the movies in disguises.

I dye my hair back to its natural brown, and she wears a dark wig. We also dress conservatively and not as we normally do. It seems like a big spy game, and sometimes it sucks but a lot of the time its fun to be all secretive in public.

So that's about it. My phone is getting lonely. James x Spike

Paris... :-*****

- James

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-02-12T19:03:00

2004-02-13T03:06:31Z

Where's my Valentine?

Paris, I miss you baby. ^_^

Wolfie's Birthday!

2004-02-08T23:34:40Z

HEY IT'S SETH GREEN'S BIRTHDAY!

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-02-07T20:52:00

2004-02-08T05:08:25Z

Paris and Nicole's party was a no-go because Adam's Pity Party siphoned off guests like crazy.

I was smashing in my Captain Jack Sparrow outfit, and the girls were fucking gorgeous as angels.

So we went to Adam's. Paris then had to go :( so I played it single. Adam was upset and locked himself in his room so I Splinter Cell'd my way up the side of the house to his window and tried to talk to him. No avail. I just hung out inside.

I fell asleep on the couch and then Adam smeared ice cream on my face. I guess I spread it around on my face. Then Angelina Jolie licked it off my face! Startled me much.

Adam got really upset and started kicking people. Then he ran outside to go trash cars. He went after my Escalade with a big heavy object and I used my remote to set off the alarm to scare him off. I pulled him away and he went inside and threw everyone out. He then locked everyone out.

So we all went to Mischa's. Hopefully it will be calmer.

That 70's Birthday

2004-02-08T03:05:30Z

Ashton, happy birthday mate!

Pirate or Vampire... Pirate or Vampire... Decisions, decisions

2004-02-07T20:31:54Z

Okay I was talking to my "Little Sister" Amber (<33333333) and we were talking about Paris and Nicole's party and who I should dress up as.

I am NOT going as Spike because then everyone would say "Oh, you're going as your own character. Not very creative James."

And no Amber, I'm not going as Simon in drag (as in her film Chance).

I'm so sorry Johnny for making the Captain so much hotter than you did. ::Grins devilishly.::

Oh, if only my Paris would go as Keira's lass!

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-02-06T18:37:00

2004-02-07T02:41:45Z

Haha Billy said he'd get me a LOTR sword. So I got him a Buffy/Angel weapon...

Can't wait for the party tomorrow night! Paris and I will be stunning together. I need a costume though.

Any ideas?

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-02-04T17:48:00

2004-02-05T02:12:14Z

Am I psychic? I don't know. I'm just glad that Paris is all right. I never thought that what I did to protect her so long ago would come back and hurt us now.

When you went to Seattle to settle things with Rick, he wasn't happy with the way thinks were dealt with. I went to a club a few weeks ago and he was there. I saw him, and through the whole night I tried to avoid him. He called me over to him...I decided it would be best just to ignore him. I was wrong. A few moments later, I felt someone tap me. When I turned around to see that it was Rick, He punched me in the eye. When he realized how much he had hurt me, he paniced. He must of thought I was going to tell on him. He asked me if I was still hanging around "that fucker who ruined my life". I told him I was, and he said since you ruined his life he was going to ruin yours. He told me to tell everyone that you had punched me, so that you would be hated by everyone who cares for me. I told him, I would never do that. That's when he took me by the arm and said if I didn't do what he wanted me to, he would not only hurt me, but he would also hurt everyone around me. I didn't want anyone close to me to get harmed. I knew he meant every damn word he was saying. So I did it. I did it to protect everyone around me, I did it to protect you. I am deeply sorry for what I have done. I hope you can try to understand.

I do understand. I don't care what happened now that you're okay. I love you, and this won't do anything but make that love stronger.

Ashton, I hope everything between us is cool now. I told you that I would never hurt her.

Nicole, thanks for dealing with me.

Paris, thank you for not being afraid any longer, and being able to come forward.

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-01-28T21:54:00

2004-01-29T06:08:56Z

:: He sits on the edge of his bed, laptop on his lap. He brings up his LJ client and loads the update page. He begins to type. ::

I can't believe this whole thing and these stupid accusations...

Why would I hit the woman I love?

I don't think I've told Paris how much I love her. I didn't think I'd fall so hard for her. I mean, I knew there was some spark there, and she was the one who told me she had feelings for me, but I never expected to fall so in love with her.

After things with Kristanna fell apart, I didn't think I'd find someone so quickly. Especially since people came down hard on me for the way things ended with Kris. I would do nothing to destroy my happiness with Paris.

Even since this new sorrow broke, I still have not returned to alcohol. It would make everything even worse. I won't resort to that level. I will get through this without drinking. (Yes, I know the song I'm listening to sounds like a song about drinking and drowning your sorrows, but it doesn't. Look into the lyrics.)

I hope someone believes me.

Paris, please call me. I love you. Why have you said these things? They aren't true. If you want me out of your life, just tell me and I'll leave. I don't know what I've done to receive this. Let me know...

:: He hits update and moves the laptop to the bedside table and lays down on the cold, lonely bed, pulling the sheets up around him as he tries to sleep away his problems. ::

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-01-27T19:36:00

2004-01-28T03:59:35Z

I'm scared.

Ashton accused me of punching Paris and giving her a black eye because I was extremely drunk.

Let it be known that I would never ever think of punching any woman, especially one that I love.

I haven't had anything to drink (alcohol-wise) since before Christmas, because I knew that I would do even more things that I would regret ~~like telling someone I loved them~~.

:: His eyes well with tears. ::

I don't know why people would say I hit my girlfriend... I love Paris so much. For the past month I've been so happy... happier than I was for a while. She's taught me so much.

My friends can attest to who I am and that I haven't had alcohol since before Christmas.

Paris... please call me. I'm so worried about you I'm sick. I'm going to call in sick to work tomorrow so I can be home if you call.

Ashton... please call me.

I want to find who did this so I can kill them. I think I know who it is (Nicole I already told you my theory and I know it sounds crazy but I think its true).

I'm going to lay on my bed ~~weeping~~, holding my phone so that if you call I'll be there.

Promoting stuff again

2004-01-26T06:48:48Z

I must say congratulations to everyone who won a Golden Globe (hell, everyone who was nominated actually). I'm glad such talent is recognized. And I will forgive Robin Williams for that joke about Paris.

Speaking of whom...

Watch an all new, never before seen The Simple Life tomorrow night on FOX!

Had to do it. She will also be on the NBC show Las Vegas.

Okay, enough promoting my girlfriend, because I know you all are sick of me doing it. ~~I sure as hell know Ben is.~~

Angel will have its 100th Episode pretty damn soon. I don't know exactly when it will air, but we shot it awhile ago and had a huge party and everything. Charisma Carpenter will return as Cordelia, so I know a lot of men will be happy about that. Poor Amy Acker has had to lead the females in the show since. The only other ladies on the show are Mercedes McNab (who I realized is probably the girl I'm crawling to in my icon, sorry Sarah Michelle) and Sarah Thompson as Eve. Yes, the evil hottie. Also, many of you may notice that Christian Kane is back and he's toying with Spike for his own evil designs.

I must commend David for directing the last episode that was aired. It was his first and it was a lot of fun. Especially since I was such a major focus of the episode. And because Sarah Michelle and I were in bed together again. With David so :( on that. Just kidding buddy.

We need more Buffy/Angel people around. I'm the only Angel star here. I'm trying to get J. August, Alexis, Amy, Andy, Mercedes, Sarah T., et. al. And David, who was here, seemed to have died. Must get him going again.

That's all. I'll shut up now.

- James Wesley Marsters

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-01-24T21:16:00

2004-01-25T05:41:01Z

Wow. I've been gone for awhile.

I've been travelling with Paris because that way I can see a lot more of the world.

We recently went to Rio. She modeled fashion for a Brazilian designer named Colcci. We had a lot of fun. She's got a lot fans there.

We are going back for Carnival, which will be amazing.

I included some shots of her from the show.

We also went to the Sundance Film Festival. Sony PlayStation was doing a charity fundraiser with celebrity karaoke and Paris stunned me with a beautiful singing voice. Nicole Richie was there too and the two of them were really really popular there.

and here's one from Sundance from 3 years ago. I included it because she's just so gorgeous in it.

Well I have to get back to her now. Later y'all. Peace and good health.

For Paris

2004-01-16T01:26:56Z

Faillle Bustier Dance Dress by Nicole Miller

Wow the crowd in this hot pink creation.

• In fuchsia faille.
• Strapless.
• Fitted bustier bodice.
• Tiered dance skirt.
• 52% cotton, 48% acetate.
• Made in USA.

Small Bucket by Prada

• In watermelon pink.
• Center clip closure.
• Double shoulder straps.
• Signature triangle Prada logo on front.
• 8 3/4"H x 10 1/4"W x 3 3/4"D.
• Made in Italy.

Logo Bit Slide by Prada

• In hot pink Prada logo jacquard fabric.
• Metal Prada logo bit.
• Black rubber sole.
• 1 1/4" heel.
• Made in Italy.

Why? Just 'cause I love you!

I hope they are fashionable and match. I'm not too good with my own fashion, let alone that of a fashion goddess girlfriend.

oh my god

2004-01-14T05:02:37Z

Sarah Michelle Gellar, I cannot believe what you did to Ben. I thought you were better than that. Of all the time I've known you and loved you as my sister, I never thought you could do that to anyone...

Ben called me and poured his heart out. It was hard to understand because he was crying so hard. The poor guy had his fucking heart broken in front of a bunch of people. And Sarah, why didn't you have the decency to tell him yourself? He had to hear it from Holly and Adam. He doesn't want to live anymore. He wants to die. Or kill Ryan, which I won't let him do.

Ben, if you need a place to stay, come stay with me and Paris okay?

I can't believe this. I don't feel like doing anything about this other than to take care of the victim: one of my best friends, Benjamin McKenzie.

If you support Ben, drop a comment in his journal. He needs all the friends he can get.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ORLANDO BLOOM!

2004-01-14T01:56:11Z

and a case of good (pirate) rum to fill it!

Sunday Update

2004-01-12T03:16:25Z

:: He slides out of the bed and looks down at Paris' sleeping form. He smiles at her and walks quietly to the study, where he sits down at the computer and brings up his LJ client. He logs in and begins to type. ::

Well its update time again.

Paris is over at my house. My poor baby still has a headache. Maybe its the flu. Maybe its just stress. But whatever it is, Dr. James can't make it go away just yet.

Paris was kind enough to let me go out today with Ben. I took him out for some guy time. We had a nice talk about relationships over some tacos. Its amazing that we both are in relationships with two of the most beautiful and gorgeous women in the world at the same time. After lunch, me and Ben went to go see The Last Samurai. Man, did that movie kick ass. It puts other movies to shame. So violent, but hey, we're guys. We both loved it. Could have used some love between Tom Cruise and the widow of the dude he kills. I mean, that sexual tension just blew through the roof. Good movie. Four stars.

I must apologize for last night at Rachel and Liv's party I didn't intend to fight anyone. I just took a swing at Drew because he was pissing me off by insulting my friends and me. You don't go around calling girls trash, mate. And then while I was leaving, Drew jumped me. Chris Carmack, who was one of the ones being insulted, then pulled Drew off of me. Then Drew punched me in the nose. Then he just disappeared. I dunno where he went.

:: He looks up and sees Paris leaning against the doorway. He smiles and she moves towards him, kissing him on the lips. She crouches down and leans her head on his lap. ::

I do know he didn't go home to a gorgeous young woman who loves him.

Anyway, I know what Sarah means about signs. I wish you all peace and love and happiness, and congrats to Matt and Natalie.

Ciao,
James

:: He hits update and logs off. He strokes Paris' head gently, then she gets up and he follows her out the room back to bed.::

jmarsters_spike @ 2004-01-10T21:19:00

2004-01-11T05:25:32Z

Name: James Wesley Marsters
Age: 41
Reason for LJ username: My name is James Marsters and I play Spike on "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".
AIM sn: James x Spike
Reason for AIM sn: My name is James and I play Spike.
Do you enjoy reading my LJ: I guess.
Why: You are amusing.
Interesting fact about you: I'm a cradle robber.
Weird fact about you: I'm much older than I look.
Quote: "I love Paris."
Will you post this in your LJ: But of course!